On Friday I went to work in an overtly feminine mode cos I felt I needed to after Thursdays jeans and black top! Then on Saturday I had to race round getting jobs done in the morning so I was free to travel to Greenwich in the afternoon to meet a Tweep I've known on Twitter for a while.
I'm always worried when I meet a Tweep, but so far I've not had a bad experience. I found quite a few friends, flatmates, and even a lover through meeting Tweeps in real life or talking on the phone!
The trick is not to meet peeps unless you feel you know them fairly well on Twitter. And don't move in with them unless you've been to at least a couple of gigs with them first!!
Had a great couple of hours in Greenwich, and I don't think we stopped talking for a second! The old me would have been amazed! Its great now to be able to connect with a woman without it having to develop into a date, or any of that awkwardness! I can be friends and no more! A meal with a man, on the other hand... not tried that yet! But of course, women are much more interesting than men!
On Saturday I wore a knee length denim skirt and quite a feminine top with my fake leather jacket. Pulling back from the feminine look I had on Friday. And on Sunday, me and my housemates travelled to Epping to see the Epping Ongar railway. I wore a cord skirt, patterned tights and a black top! I felt frumpy. It was a bad choice. also my hair was shit!!
Sunday turned out to be quite a stressful day overall, though I'm glad we did what we did. I was exhausted at the end of it. Despite everything I felt I passed completely as female while we were out. Got called love by blokes! That's always a good sign!
Today I decided to stay plain and wore a knee length black jersey skirt and a blue and white stripey top with my current fave cardigan (see pic,top).
I felt reasonably good today and confident. I have to keep reminding myself of where I've come from! In 2010 I travelled on a train, as a woman, for the first time ever, and I wore a wig and kept myself hidden as much as possible. In 2014 I travel everywhere as a woman, with my real hair and I NEVER hide!! Nor do I ever feel ashamed or embarrassed!
It was only in August 2013, just over a year ago, that I first travelled across the country as a woman, from my home in East London into Central London and via train to North Wales. Then back again a couple of days later. I didn't take any men's clothes with me and that was a big step!! It was the beginning of starting to go full time!
Today I feel I do almost everything that Steve would have done! Though I'm more careful when I'm out late at night, I don't feel that its limiting me. On the contrary I'm more determined to go out at night now than I was as a man!
I'm the same, but I'm different. I'm different to the extent that I am now fully myself, wheras before I kept parts of me hidden. And it showed!
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