One of the great things about being a girl now is that I can indulge the whimsical side of me more. I never knew how to do it as a guy. I felt the relentless pressures of masculinity and "being cool" weighing heavy on me. It was little stuff - like the arched brow of the sales person, my hasty and unconvincing lie that it was a present, actually, & comments from colleagues - and extreme disapproval of partner who expected me to be a man. In fact quite a few of the things I bought for myself were 'disappeared' while i was with her. That and my own internal nagging voice - the one that my father put into me when i was growing up about what a real man would do. And now, this feels like freedom. Its little stuff like this that makes a difference.
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| today's selfie |
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| owl ear phones |
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| hot water bottle |
So I'm gradually feeling less self conscious and slowly my Dad's voice in my head is growing quiet. I found these things in a sale -half price - and had to have them. It was pay day after all!
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