I had to give up any attempt to keep this Blog up to date shortly after Xmas as events overtook me.
I was nominated to stand as a Parliamentary candidate for the Green Party back in November. Since then it has been a whirlwind of emails, meetings, documentation, leafletting, press interviews and photo sessions, and my first ever political conference.
In addition I was still carrying out my TFL LGBT network duties, being photographed by a student for her final year project (exhibition coming up) and trying to have a life. Oh, and I met my boyfriend!
Since May 7th things have calmed down a lot. I had the inevitable (aparently) come down experience, followed by anxiety from realising how much I'd let stuff slide over 6 months.
Tomorrow I fly off to Canada to stay with my friend, Tam, for two weeks. This was always planned as my opportunity to refresh and recover, and come back and start again.
My boyfriend will be staying in my house to look after things, while I'l having fun in the Great North!
Over time I will write up my political experiences and try to bring my trans journey up to date too. I've had one GIC appointment now. My 2nd appointment last week was cancelled. My voice sessions are complete and I seem to get by out and about with my current voice, though I'm still far from confident all the time, thanks to numerous colds, coughs and asthma fucking my throat up!
I need to restart LASER as my growth has come back a bit stronger and a bit faster - though I still don't have any shadow to speak off.
My hair is purple/ brown now and I've put on a bit of weight.
I now fully identify as female, there is no doubt in my mind and with that brings confidence. My boyfriend is straight and cis, and assures me I'm an attractive woman, so that helps!
Even on my low confidence days I never doubt my femaleness. Also - the only abuse I get are from those who remember me in my early days. In other words I pass completely but my history still causes me issues.
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